Ok...

Ok two weird things... first i'm sitting here reading Esquire (not weird... normal) and in this months issue Suicide Girls is in it... ok thats a bit fucking weird for esquire... second weird thing... the article is about how suicide girls is starting a printed magazine!!! "SG the Magazine, a print adaptation of the goth-tastic softcore site suicidegirls.com"

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There are these seven conditions which overtake an angry man or woman which are gratifying and helpful to a rival. What seven?
Take the case of one who wishes of a rival: "I wish he were ugly." And why? One does not like a beautiful rival. This person, overwhelmed and subverted by anger even though he is bathed, anointed, with trimmed hair and beard and clad in clean clothes - for all that, he is ugly because of his anger.
Then, take the case of one who wishes this of a rival: "I hope he sleeps badly." And why? One does not like a rival to sleep well. This person, being overwhelmed and subverted by anger, despite lying on a bed spread with fleecy cover, spread with white blankets and woollen cover embroidered with flowers, covered by an antelope skin, with awning above and red cushions at each end - he sleeps badly because of his anger.
Again, take the case of one who wishes this of a rival: "I hope he becomes poor." And why? One does not like a rich rival. This person, being overwhelmed and subverted by anger, owning whatever possessions, earned by vigour, gathered up by strength of arm and sweat of brow righteously and lawfully - the king will order them all sent to the royal treasury because he is overwhelmed by anger.
Once again, take the case of one who wishes this of a rival: "I wish he was without fame." And why? One does not like a famous rival. For this sort of person, being overwhelmed and subverted by anger, whatever fame he has earned falls away because he is overwhelmed by anger.
Again, take the case of one who wishes this of a rival: "I hope he has no friends." And why? One does not like a rival with friends. As for this person, being overwhelmed and subverted by anger, whatever friends, intimates, relatives and kin he has will all avoid him and keep away from him because he is overwhelmed by anger.
And finally, take the case of one who wishes this of a rival: "I hope he goes to hell." And why? One does not like a rival to go to heaven. This person, overwhelmed and subverted by anger, misconducts himself in body, speech, and mind and thus goes to hell himself.
These are the seven conditions which overtake the angry man or woman which are gratifying and helpful to a rival.

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There are these seven conditions which overtake an angry man or woman which are gratifying and helpful to a rival. What seven?
Take the case of one who wishes of a rival: "I wish he were ugly." And why? One does not like a beautiful rival. This person, overwhelmed and subverted by anger even though he is bathed, anointed, with trimmed hair and beard and clad in clean clothes - for all that, he is ugly because of his anger.
Then, take the case of one who wishes this of a rival: "I hope he sleeps badly." And why? One does not like a rival to sleep well. This person, being overwhelmed and subverted by anger, despite lying on a bed spread with fleecy cover, spread with white blankets and woollen cover embroidered with flowers, covered by an antelope skin, with awning above and red cushions at each end - he sleeps badly because of his anger.
Again, take the case of one who wishes this of a rival: "I hope he becomes poor." And why? One does not like a rich rival. This person, being overwhelmed and subverted by anger, owning whatever possessions, earned by vigour, gathered up by strength of arm and sweat of brow righteously and lawfully - the king will order them all sent to the royal treasury because he is overwhelmed by anger.
Once again, take the case of one who wishes this of a rival: "I wish he was without fame." And why? One does not like a famous rival. For this sort of person, being overwhelmed and subverted by anger, whatever fame he has earned falls away because he is overwhelmed by anger.
Again, take the case of one who wishes this of a rival: "I hope he has no friends." And why? One does not like a rival with friends. As for this person, being overwhelmed and subverted by anger, whatever friends, intimates, relatives and kin he has will all avoid him and keep away from him because he is overwhelmed by anger.
And finally, take the case of one who wishes this of a rival: "I hope he goes to hell." And why? One does not like a rival to go to heaven. This person, overwhelmed and subverted by anger, misconducts himself in body, speech, and mind and thus goes to hell himself.
These are the seven conditions which overtake the angry man or woman which are gratifying and helpful to a rival.

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One's patience should be strengthened by thinking: "Those who have no patience are afflicted in this world and do actions that lead to affliction in the next life." One should think: "Although this suffering arises because of the wrong deeds of others, my body is the field for that suffering, and the actions which brought it into being are mine." One should think: "This suffering will free me from the debt of kamma." One should think: "If there were no wrongdoers, how could I bring patience to perfection?" One should think: "Although he is a wrongdoer now, in the past he may have been my benefactor." One should think: "A wrongdoer is at the same time a benefactor because through him patience can be practised." One should think: "All beings are like my own children and who would get angry over the misdeeds of one's own children?" One should think: "He does me wrong because of some fault in myself, I should strive to remove this."

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Even if one should seize the hem of my robe and walk step by step behind me, if he is covetous, malevolent of heart, with corrupt mind and unstrained, noise and distracted with senses uncontrolled, he is far from me and why? He does not see the Dhamma, and not seeing the Dhamma, he does not see me. Even if not covetous in his desires, not fierce in his longings, with a kind heart and pure mind, mindfull, composted, calmed, one-pointed and with senses restrained, then indeed, he is near to me and I am near to him, and why? He sees the Dhamma, and seeing the Dhamma, sees me. Though physically close behind it one is acquisitve and restless. How far is that turbulent one from one at peace, that burning one from one cooled. The hangering one from content! But thoroughly understanding Dhamma, and freed from longing through insight, The wise one, rid of all desire, is calm as a pool unstirred by the wind. How close is that peaceful one to one at peace, That cool one to one cooled, that content one to one content!

what the hell

What the hell so I go back up to lowes today and now they are telling me something entirely different... now I'll only be part time... and I won't be doing what I do now at best buy (merch/inventory)... I'll be in tools/hardware as a specialist... when I don't know jack shit about tools other than what a saw does, what a screwdriver does, and what a wrench does, and what a drill does.

Sweet

Sweet I have an interview at Lowes tomorrow for a night stalker position... I put I only want full time... hopefully they realize that and give me full time... if so that would kickass because lowe's starts out better than what I'm already making, plus I imagine third shift/night crew makes a bit more. Even if they just give me 20 hours a week or so I'll be better off than I am now... its 1 mile away instead of 12, and I'd be making a little more an hour.

Best Buy

At our morning meeting today... I decided that I'm going to dedicate the majority of my time off to finding another employer. After two people in my department, two people who show up late for work everyday, can often be found sitting in the breakroom when they have used more than their allowed breaks, who are constantly bad mouthing and putting down fellow employees... were awarded Store All Star awards (an award given at the meetings every three months to 10 employees who have been the hardest workers and most valued employees)... while those of us who actually work weren't even recognized... this, this has made me decide that Best Buy is not a company I want to be working for.