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Ok... I'm through with nikki I think. I got burnt on this realtionship like all others. She is in that pass through or whatever... I heard she is startin to get serious with some dude there. Thats bullshit... oh well. Whatever... I'm used to this kinda stuff happenin to me. I'll get over it I guess. Whatever. I have no feelings. i'm cool....
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Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html

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I'm about the happiest person alive right now. I just talked to nikki. She just earned telephone privelages there at the place. She gets 10 minutes a day. So her first call was to me... and she said she is gonna use all the 10 minutes on me every day. She also said her and some dude keep freak dancin and grindin each other all the time. This upsets me. I think she just said it to bother me. I dunno that left me feelig empty inside. I got to talk to her today though. She's been clean for 3 days to cause of being in there. That is good. That is very good. Hopefully they let her out soon and I can keep her clean. IF not oh well. As long as the let her out soon and I can go see her. Well I'm gonna go lie down. Thats all I feel like doing... thats how happy I am.
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I'm about the happiest person alive right now. I just talked to nikki. She just earned telephone privelages there at the place. She gets 10 minutes a day. So her first call was to me... and she said she is gonna use all the 10 minutes on me every day. She also said her and some dude keep freak dancin and grindin each other all the time. This upsets me. I think she just said it to bother me. I dunno that left me feelig empty inside. I got to talk to her today though. She's been clean for 3 days to cause of being in there. That is good. That is very good. Hopefully they let her out soon and I can keep her clean. IF not oh well. As long as the let her out soon and I can go see her. Well I'm gonna go lie down. Thats all I feel like doing... thats how happy I am.

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I lied... this should be my last post. Nikki is ok. She is in a guardian house. This means I won't get to see her again. This is just like losing dad. Losing Laura wasn't as bad cause I still see her aroud and know how she is doing. Well with nikki I'm not going to know any of this. See this teaches me not to care about people. Not to love people. Every time I do something happens to them to where they can't or won't talk to me again. So this is the point in my life where I decide what to do. I have decided that I am never going to become attatched to anyone or anything again. I have decided I am no longer going to make friends or spend time with the ones I have. I have decided that It is best this way. That way I don't fuck up peoples lives and get my feelings hurt more. So for everyone that knows me... don't think I'm stopping talking to you and hanging out with you because I hate you. That isn't the case. I'm just trying to save you all and save my feelings. So good bye everyone. For real this time. I'm now just a person. A person no one should talk to. A person no one should expect much from. I have my computer now and only it. Hopefully it doesn't leave me.
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I lied... this should be my last post. Nikki is ok. She is in a guardian house. This means I won't get to see her again. This is just like losing dad. Losing Laura wasn't as bad cause I still see her aroud and know how she is doing. Well with nikki I'm not going to know any of this. See this teaches me not to care about people. Not to love people. Every time I do something happens to them to where they can't or won't talk to me again. So this is the point in my life where I decide what to do. I have decided that I am never going to become attatched to anyone or anything again. I have decided I am no longer going to make friends or spend time with the ones I have. I have decided that It is best this way. That way I don't fuck up peoples lives and get my feelings hurt more. So for everyone that knows me... don't think I'm stopping talking to you and hanging out with you because I hate you. That isn't the case. I'm just trying to save you all and save my feelings. So good bye everyone. For real this time. I'm now just a person. A person no one should talk to. A person no one should expect much from. I have my computer now and only it. Hopefully it doesn't leave me.