I lied... this should be my last post. Nikki is ok. She is in a guardian house. This means I won't get to see her again. This is just like losing dad. Losing Laura wasn't as bad cause I still see her aroud and know how she is doing. Well with nikki I'm not going to know any of this. See this teaches me not to care about people. Not to love people. Every time I do something happens to them to where they can't or won't talk to me again. So this is the point in my life where I decide what to do. I have decided that I am never going to become attatched to anyone or anything again. I have decided I am no longer going to make friends or spend time with the ones I have. I have decided that It is best this way. That way I don't fuck up peoples lives and get my feelings hurt more. So for everyone that knows me... don't think I'm stopping talking to you and hanging out with you because I hate you. That isn't the case. I'm just trying to save you all and save my feelings. So good bye everyone. For real this time. I'm now just a person. A person no one should talk to. A person no one should expect much from. I have my computer now and only it. Hopefully it doesn't leave me.