I need.

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I need a car now more than ever... so 11 days before my 18th birthday mom totals it by backing into it... when she knew it was there... 10 days before my 18th birthday I sit here... listening to how everyone has had fun the past two days... and life has had a fakeness to it these past two days... simply because I know I have no car... which means I have no life... which means I have no way of seeing my few friends... *sighs* I keep giving life all these chances... I keep trying... and instead of getting better... like it should... it keeps getting worse... the harder I try... the worse it gets... its fucking bullshit... its utter fucking bullshit. *sighs* what the fuck ever.