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I realized something today.... I majroly fucked up with Nikki... she really was the best thing that ever happened to me... I wish I could get a hold of her... to tell her that I'm sorry... but I don't know how to... I should have never lied to her... I miss her... I just miss hearing her voice... and seeing her... and I miss hearing the things she used to say... I fucked up... and I hate myself for it.