This is my final journal. My final farewell. So far everything in my life I've had going for me it has found a way to mess up. I loved laura... everyone knows how that one went. I believe I really just was infatuated with her. I love nikki... now she has ran away. No one knows where she is. I've spent all day trying to find her. I say good bye to everyone now. I've lost my dad. I've lost Laura. Now I've lost nikki. Three strikes... I'm out. Good bye everyone. I leave now.