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i'm gonna kill her... I'm asleep... she fuckin comes in there... dumps a glass of water on me... throws some papers at me... tells me "go to these god damn temporary services tomorrow and your ass better get a job" I said "what the fuck is your problem, I was aslsep" and she tells me to pack my bags and get out before she calls the cops... I'm gonna fuckin kill her... she's nuts... I can't deal with her psycho shit... blah... I"M SORRY MOM I CAN"T GO TO TEMP SERVICES!!! THEY WANT PEOPLE WITH HIGH SCHOOL DIPLOMAS, COLLEGE DIPLOMAS, AND PREVIOUS JOB EXPERIENCE IN THE FIELDS THEY HIRE IN... she gave me a list of a bunch of fucking architect and lawyer and IT temp services... She's nuts...

Love... or something like it...

Love is such an awful thing... I mean... for a select few it works out and is grand... but for the rest of us... especially me... all it does is causes friends to be lost, me to be hurt... and me to find myself wishing I was ANYONE else quite often... Ehh... oh well... someday maybe I'll be one of the special few eh? Hopefully...
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on
A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me
And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish to send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of
The highest powers
In lonely hours
The tears devour you
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me
Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standing right here before you
All that you need will surely come
I'll be your dream I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

God damnit

God damn copy cats... Tiff has her name on her arm now... mother fuck... everytime I do something... people copy me... like... I put tiff's name on my arm... few months later she puts her name on her arm... I get a leather trenchcoat... next school year EVERYONE has leather trenchcoats... even the preppy dickheads... ect ect... heh... I'm so crazy! ME SO HORNY! *laughs*

hmm..

Today... burried a 17 year old... his casket arrived in 1 of 3 monster trucks... billions of hot alternative chicks... billions of hot redneck chicks... and even some black people were there... plus lots of middle aged peole and some little faggot ass "morpheus" teenage boys. Then left work around what... 12... so 5 hours after being there... and 5 hours early... and got my truck... yay!

today...

today... picked up trash... learn how to operate a million dollar huge back-ho... uh... had fun driving a truck with a dump bed that was a stick... and a tractor that was a stick... uh... played around with one of the expensive ass lawnmowers with the 2 handles that conrtol the entire thing... and uh... dug a grave... and prepared it for a funeral tomorrow... got home... forman called me... talked for 2 and a half hours about video games... time to go pass out on couch and wake up at 6... to get to work by 7 and work till about noon then go get my truck... relax... go in saturday at 8am... and uh... work till sometime. sunday off... monday-friday 7-5.... 7-5 every m-f till after memoridal day *passes out*