Mark. A. Mercer

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Dad, it's almost been 5 years to the minute now... since you died. I thought that it would get easier every year... as I adjusted to you being gone. However it only seems to be getting worse, because you aren't here for so much, and because I've royally screwed my life up, and that wouldn't have happened if you wouldn't have died. I guess in a way I have dishonored you by failing life so far. I want to apologiz, apologize for 5 years ago today. When I held your hand, and held you as you died. I apologize for making you fight on. You could hear my voice, and as long as I talked your heart fought to stay beating. Finally I stopped talking to let you go, I'm sorry for stopping talking, Maybe my voice was helping you, maybe without it there you were afraid. I guess I'll never know. I can only hope that you met Death and weren't afraid. 12 days to go and I'll be 18, just something else you'll miss. I'm not mad at you though, You held on as long as you could, fought to stay... fought so you wouldn't have to leave me. I miss you dad, and I love you...

The lord is my Shepherd I shall not want
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures
He leadeth me beside the still waters
He restoreth my soul
He Guideth me in straight paths for his name sake
Yea though I walk in the valley of the shadow of death I shall fear
no evil
For thou art with me Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me
Thou preparest a table before me in the presents of my enemies Thou
has anointed
my head with oil, my cup runeth over
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and
I shall
live in the house of the lord for ever and ever

Damn..

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Damn... devin has an 18.1 gallon fuel tank... I only have a 15.3 *sobs* oh well he has a L69 HO 305ci V8 and I have a 2.8l v6... he needs the gas... oh and devin... t-tops in your 84... would be custom no matter what... just because... t tops were only factory from 85-88... blah you suck to devin... 3.42: rear differential... thats not fair... my chevelle will only have a 3:31 rear diffenrtial... but my 454 ls5 will blow your little 305 v8 out of the water any day... now I just gotta get it... heh.

I hate people

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I hate people like Ashlie... who think its cool to post about 50 times a day... thanks to people like them... that post 50 times a day and use free accounts... thanks to them livejournal is going to start limiting all kinds of stuff... I'm a paid member... and you free member... I get off to posting 1 sentence posts... people are ruining a good thing... so Fuck off... if you got a comment leave it... I'd like to hear your excuse for being assholes and not just posting everything at once... or editing your previous post everytime and just adding to it..... ooh and I start work tomorrow... yay.

Hmm... better recap of this weekend

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Ok, a better recap of this weekend, went to devin's... we went and picked up Vanessa... hmm... I told her not to buy a book that she was going to and she didn't... now she wants me to teach her... so I have a new student... before that... on the way tot he mall... my blood entered her... so my blood now runs through her body... that is always good... heh... we were talking walking behind everyone else at the mall and decided that we are both gods... and that we are the voices in peoples heads... *nods* uh... we went downtown... jake's rental car got a flat... it was Vanessa's first time in a "big city" uh... then like other stuff happened... saturday we babysat dev's cousins. um... today took devin home... gonna decide what car I want to buy next... start thinking... I think maybe get a monte... I dunno... they are nice... thats if I can't get my chevelle clone... ciao

*nods*

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I) Respect not pity or weakness, for they are a disease which makes sick the strong.
II) Test always your strength, for therein lies success.
III) Seek hapiness in victory - but never in peace.
IV) Enjoy a short rest, better than a long.
V) Come as a reaper, for thus you will sow.
VI) Never love anything so much you cannot see it die.
VII) Build not upon sand but upon rock And build not for today or yesterday but for all time.
VIII) Strive ever for more, for conquest is never done.
IX) And die rather than submit.
X) Forge not works of art but swords of death, for therein lies great art.
XI) Learn to raise yourself above yourself so you can triumph over all.
XII) The blood of the living makes good fertilizer for the seeds of the new.
XIII) He who stands atop the highest pyramid of skulls can see the furthest.
XIV) Discard not love but treat it as an imposter, but ever be just.
XV) All that is great is built upon sorrow.
XVI) Strive not only forwards, but upwards for greatness lies in the highest.
XVII) Come as a fresh strong wind that breaks yet also creates.
XVIII) Let love of life be a goal but let your highest goal be greatness.
XIX) Nothing is beautiful except man: but most beautiful of all is woman.
XX) Reject all illusion and lies, for they hinder the strong.
XXI) What does not kill, makes stronger.

I need.

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I need one willing person to go dumpster diving with me... we'll only be in clean dumpsters... dumpsters that don't contain food... my biggest places I want to hit are compusa circuit city and best buy. *nods* also I am proud to announce that I am now available as a service to get things off of ebay. Soon I will also start selling things for people. On purchases I will charge a 3$ fee that I will add to the total cost of shipping and your total winning bid. Simply to cover my checking expenses. You go through me and pay the extra 3$ you will get your stuff much quicker because I will be able to pay instantly for you. When I begin selling in 2 weeks... I will take 5% of your total profit after shipping. You can't think of that as to bad, for I"ll list the auction and advertise it. If anyone is interested you know how to get a hold of me somehow. *nods* For items that don't sell I will charge a 1$ fee (that covers the ebay listing fees)

holy shit...

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Holy shit!!! listen tot his part of my horoscope "A small sum of money could come to you today, perhaps a small bonus, or a loan repaid. You might want to surprise your love partner with something your friend has wanted for a long time, perhaps a book. This will come as a surprise, and should be more welcome than you'd think! The celestial atmosphere can put a big smile on the face of your loved one. Sit back and enjoy it!" thats part of my horoscope for today... so I just get the mail... and I get a check... from the Department of the Treasury... for 16 dollars... for me... for no reason at all... And its not my taxes...