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Hello all. Just trying to stop crying here. So if some things are mispelled please forgive me. Just sitting here wondering how I'm gonna tell mom Laura and I aren't friends. It's gonna break moms heart but I can't keep lying to her. Anyway... How is everyone. I wish I could see all of you. This sucks not seeing anyone. Sure I got Devin and all to see everyday but we both want to see all of you. Happy birthday Jess. Well I guess that is all for now.

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Hello all. Just trying to stop crying here. So if some things are mispelled please forgive me. Just sitting here wondering how I'm gonna tell mom Laura and I aren't friends. It's gonna break moms heart but I can't keep lying to her. Anyway... How is everyone. I wish I could see all of you. This sucks not seeing anyone. Sure I got Devin and all to see everyday but we both want to see all of you. Happy birthday Jess. Well I guess that is all for now.

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Ok today was totally boring. Devin and I went to his house for a while then left. We went up to Blockbuster to take some movies back and for me to apply. We then came home and sat around for about an hour and a half. So at 4 we left and got dinner. I then took Devin home. Now here it is 7:30 and I'm bored out of my skull like I was all day. Devin and Mandy are trying too hook me up with Nikki Lanpher... I don't know why. It won't work out anyway. Nothin has yet... so I doubt this will. Anyway... Life has me in a bad place right now... about every day my view on life changes. One day I'm happy as I can be and the next I'm just wanting to die. Mom wants to sell the house. This is one thing that keeps taking me down. Also I'm basically sitting around alone all summer accept for when Devin comes over. This is also keeping me down a lot. I have various things cheering me up from time to time though. Oh well... no one wants to here me bitch so I'll stop writing.
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Ok today was totally boring. Devin and I went to his house for a while then left. We went up to Blockbuster to take some movies back and for me to apply. We then came home and sat around for about an hour and a half. So at 4 we left and got dinner. I then took Devin home. Now here it is 7:30 and I'm bored out of my skull like I was all day. Devin and Mandy are trying too hook me up with Nikki Lanpher... I don't know why. It won't work out anyway. Nothin has yet... so I doubt this will. Anyway... Life has me in a bad place right now... about every day my view on life changes. One day I'm happy as I can be and the next I'm just wanting to die. Mom wants to sell the house. This is one thing that keeps taking me down. Also I'm basically sitting around alone all summer accept for when Devin comes over. This is also keeping me down a lot. I have various things cheering me up from time to time though. Oh well... no one wants to here me bitch so I'll stop writing.

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Well life is just fuckin peachy (sorry Tristan but I Had to put it there). I was up at the mall with Angela... It was just me and her... so spoon gets there.. then she forgets I exist... hangs all over him and stuff... and then leaves with him instead of me. Whatever though. I always forget that I'm not supposed to have FEELINGS. So I guess it shouldn't bother me much. Peace out .
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Well life is just fuckin peachy (sorry Tristan but I Had to put it there). I was up at the mall with Angela... It was just me and her... so spoon gets there.. then she forgets I exist... hangs all over him and stuff... and then leaves with him instead of me. Whatever though. I always forget that I'm not supposed to have FEELINGS. So I guess it shouldn't bother me much. Peace out .
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I feel great... I really do.. I told Tristan Alexander how much of a father like figure he has been to me... and how much he has helped me when I needed help... I told him everything about him that was true... I just feel so happy and great... I've also been talking to miss angela all day... and I feel fabulous... I'm so happy right now... I've never been this happy...

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I feel great... I really do.. I told Tristan Alexander how much of a father like figure he has been to me... and how much he has helped me when I needed help... I told him everything about him that was true... I just feel so happy and great... I've also been talking to miss angela all day... and I feel fabulous... I'm so happy right now... I've never been this happy...

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Gee my life is so fucking fun... its 7:41... Devin is downstairs asleep and I've been up for five hours sitting here at this computer like I do all the time... Later today Devin and I will be out and around but we will just be going to his other friends houses... Like yesterday he wanted to see Brandy so I sat in her driveway bored out of my skull for about an hour... then we went to the Aishe's and I sat their bored out of my skull for over an hour. Today will be similiar... thats how it always is... I wish I had somewhat of a life like he does... oh well... not all of us can be lucky I guess... so fuck the world... peace
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Gee my life is so fucking fun... its 7:41... Devin is downstairs asleep and I've been up for five hours sitting here at this computer like I do all the time... Later today Devin and I will be out and around but we will just be going to his other friends houses... Like yesterday he wanted to see Brandy so I sat in her driveway bored out of my skull for about an hour... then we went to the Aishe's and I sat their bored out of my skull for over an hour. Today will be similiar... thats how it always is... I wish I had somewhat of a life like he does... oh well... not all of us can be lucky I guess... so fuck the world... peace
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Ok... this is GAY... I need a life!!! I wish I would get hit by a car or somethin... I'm tired of being single and being alone and bored all the fucking time... somtimes I think no one cares about me... I'm probably correct. I mean why would anyone care about me? Its not like they should... oh well. Maybe I should just give up on the idea of ever having someone to share my life with and pamper them and treat them as best as I could and wait on them. Maybe some day things will change... I doubt it though. I'm just an annoying loser that no one wants around. Whatever... I'm tired of people saying they love me when they don't... or this "I just want us to be friends" bullshit excuse. Whatever... if no one wants me in their life I understand. Peace out..

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Ok... this is GAY... I need a life!!! I wish I would get hit by a car or somethin... I'm tired of being single and being alone and bored all the fucking time... somtimes I think no one cares about me... I'm probably correct. I mean why would anyone care about me? Its not like they should... oh well. Maybe I should just give up on the idea of ever having someone to share my life with and pamper them and treat them as best as I could and wait on them. Maybe some day things will change... I doubt it though. I'm just an annoying loser that no one wants around. Whatever... I'm tired of people saying they love me when they don't... or this "I just want us to be friends" bullshit excuse. Whatever... if no one wants me in their life I understand. Peace out..