To Dev0-Happy birthday Devin... I envy you... you had people ate your 16th birthday party... You got a girl... you got a boomstick. You have an awesome family. It was great being there tonight. It let me feel like I was a part of somethin big and good. It also was a bad experience though... Its making me wish I had a nice family that was cool... also Laura was there. She kept looking at me... then she sat their in the floor in front of me... and I couldn't stop watching her. Its pure torture... In some country it has to be illegal. Oh well...
To Laura- Laura... tonight you asked why I don't talk to you but I talk to other people. Heres the answer. I do that because I'm afraid I'll say something stupid to you. Or hurt your feelings. I still love you, and It's just hard for me to talk to you and be places with you... mainly because I want something more serious with you but I know it will never happen. I'm sorry I got pissed about friday. I shoulnd't of cared. At least I got a good chance to think again. Thats why I love shows... thats also why I hate them. I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you over the years. I'm so sorry. After you read this... you should hit me... yes thats right... next time you see me hit me as hard as you can. To pay me back for being a dick to you. Kick me in the balls to... I deserve much more than that. I however can't let you kill me... I can however let you hurt me to some extent.
to Ashlie- um... Lets forget about everything bad thats happened... lets keep a friendship... and just a friendship...
I know there is a lot more people I need to say things to. I'll get around to it soon. I just am starting to cry to much to really see and effectively type. I'm sorry.. I'll get aroud to apologizing to everyone very soon.