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Hmm. Life isn't for me. I am not tryint to sound suicidal and get a bunch of fucking sympathy and all that shit. Life just isnt for me though. No matter who I love I get hurt. No matter what I do for people I get hurt. No one, no living thing, accecpts me. I'm truly meant to spend life alone. Its something I need to fucking accept. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately because I haven't had much to do... I've realized a lot of things... I've thought to much for it to be healthy probably.... I don't update anymore because so few people actually read... The only people I've seen outside of school are Josh and Ashlie... there have been times when I was supposed to do stuff with Dianna but yeah her life is to busy and her damn job and animals are to important... she just doesn't want to have anything to do with me like most people. I don't know what life has planned for me... I'm sure its not much... so I'm not all that worried about it... I seriously want life to end but I don't want to kill myself... so I can only hope... anyway... this was really just for me to get some shit off my mind... I'm not to sure anyone will read it... but it's really for me not other people... feel free to comment... although there isn't much to comment on.... ciao.