I just saw..

I just saw devin forabout 30 minutes... its the most fun I've had in 2 or 3 weeks... and we didn't even do anything.... as everyone knows... tiff and him are back together... most know how hard it is for me to handle that... seeing someone who is my life... and was my reason for living... and seeing someone that is as close as blood to me... together... I just can't handle it... maybe I"ll try to work myself into their lives... maybe I'll go away... and won't have to see or hear or know about any of it... I don't know... I really don't know.