Today is Dad's Birthday. I almost forgot. I feel so bad. 1 month and 18 days till his anniversary. I can't believe I almost forgot about his birthday. I just feel so bad. Dad... I'm sorry. Anyway. I wish I wasn't alive... I really do. I just have no will left in me to go on. I don't wanna kill myself or anything... I just kinda wish I didn't exist... I'm not bitter with life. I just feel I have no reason to be here. Anyway... I'm gonna go... Peace and Good Nite everyone.