Ok. Yesterday was a slow and boring day for the most part. I slepy a lot and around 7 I went out with Josh and Bob-o and Ahslie. I was back about 9 and just slept some more. Yeah my life is boring I know...
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Ok. Yesterday was a slow and boring day for the most part. I slepy a lot and around 7 I went out with Josh and Bob-o and Ahslie. I was back about 9 and just slept some more. Yeah my life is boring I know...
Today is a ok day I guess. Just woke up and am already planning a fairly relaxing day with a little shopping for special things. I'm trying to forget what happened last week so I can enjoy this weekend even more...
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Today is a ok day I guess. Just woke up and am already planning a fairly relaxing day with a little shopping for special things. I'm trying to forget what happened last week so I can enjoy this weekend even more...
Laura was being nice to me today, I don't know why. She kept talking to me and hugging me. I think she might want something. Oh well... I'm no gonna even try to be her friend till I know she just doesn't want something from me. Thank god this weekend will be good... lots of rest... its well needed to...
-Ryan Mercer
-Ryan Mercer
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Laura was being nice to me today, I don't know why. She kept talking to me and hugging me. I think she might want something. Oh well... I'm no gonna even try to be her friend till I know she just doesn't want something from me. Thank god this weekend will be good... lots of rest... its well needed to...
-Ryan Mercer
-Ryan Mercer
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Ok Today wasn't that bad. I"m happy that I'm going to be joining the national guard next year. Found a cool store today to shop at... It sells cool jewelry and stuff. Hangin out with my old friends again. The Tribe in season two is getting very interesting...
Ok Today wasn't that bad. I"m happy that I'm going to be joining the national guard next year. Found a cool store today to shop at... It sells cool jewelry and stuff. Hangin out with my old friends again. The Tribe in season two is getting very interesting...
Today wasn't that bad I guess. Although I almost broke down crying before school. Laura didn't say one single word to me today and she just preteneded I wasn't there. She would talk to everyone else and hug them but I never even saw her look at me once. This hurts me but I guess things have to be the way they have to be.
-Ryan Mercer
-Ryan Mercer
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Today wasn't that bad I guess. Although I almost broke down crying before school. Laura didn't say one single word to me today and she just preteneded I wasn't there. She would talk to everyone else and hug them but I never even saw her look at me once. This hurts me but I guess things have to be the way they have to be.
-Ryan Mercer
-Ryan Mercer
Ok. Laura and I are officially no longer friends. She has told me not to talk to her, call her, email her or instant messange her. I'm also not allowed to hang out with my other friends at school because she doesn't want me in her presence. I think I want to curl up in a ball and die. I hope something kills me in my sleep. I really do.
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Ok. Laura and I are officially no longer friends. She has told me not to talk to her, call her, email her or instant messange her. I'm also not allowed to hang out with my other friends at school because she doesn't want me in her presence. I think I want to curl up in a ball and die. I hope something kills me in my sleep. I really do.
Hello everyone who cares. Well Laura and I are no longer friends. I never thought this day would come. I've loved two people in my life before. Janelle Marshall and Laura. Now that Laura and I are no longer friends I know we will never have anything. She has said so... she told me that the last time on 1-19-01. Other than that my life is peachy. No friends now. No life. No car since I totalled it. I can get my license today but why even bother.
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Hello everyone who cares. Well Laura and I are no longer friends. I never thought this day would come. I've loved two people in my life before. Janelle Marshall and Laura. Now that Laura and I are no longer friends I know we will never have anything. She has said so... she told me that the last time on 1-19-01. Other than that my life is peachy. No friends now. No life. No car since I totalled it. I can get my license today but why even bother.
If anyone of my quote unquote "friends" decide to ever read my journal maybe they will realize that they ruined my weakend, pissed me off horribly, and probably ended our friendships. I hope they are happy. I really wish my life would be better. I guess that will never happen though. Hell look at it now... it sucks... no girlfriend yet... ever... never will be either... just because people don't care about me.
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If anyone of my quote unquote "friends" decide to ever read my journal maybe they will realize that they ruined my weakend, pissed me off horribly, and probably ended our friendships. I hope they are happy. I really wish my life would be better. I guess that will never happen though. Hell look at it now... it sucks... no girlfriend yet... ever... never will be either... just because people don't care about me.
I'm still very pissed at my friends right now... yeah its been aobut 16 hours but I'm still mad. I don't think this weekend will ever be forgotten. I was treated like crap by my "friends" the little fascist hypocrites can go choke for all I care. They aren't gonna get back on my good side easily.
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I'm still very pissed at my friends right now... yeah its been aobut 16 hours but I'm still mad. I don't think this weekend will ever be forgotten. I was treated like crap by my "friends" the little fascist hypocrites can go choke for all I care. They aren't gonna get back on my good side easily.
This is what I'm feeling toward everyone right now...
Survival of the Heart
I loved you so much,
With all of my heart.
I let you into my life,
and you tore it apart.
You said that you loved me,
I was a fool to believe.
I should have known better,
Yet my heart you did decieve.
This pain is immense,
So much have you hurt me,
Yet my life will go on,
This you shall see.
After all this is through,
I will tell you good-bye,
But I swear to you now,
You shall not make me cry.
I loved you so much,
With all of my heart.
I let you into my life,
and you tore it apart.
You said that you loved me,
I was a fool to believe.
I should have known better,
Yet my heart you did decieve.
This pain is immense,
So much have you hurt me,
Yet my life will go on,
This you shall see.
After all this is through,
I will tell you good-bye,
But I swear to you now,
You shall not make me cry.
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Ok this is what is up. Yesterday Sloppy sucked. Everyone was fighting and shit. People were drunk. And it was pissing me off... I also learned that some of my friends are hypocrites. They tell everyone not to drink and smoke and stuff then they turn around and fucking do it. I hate people some times. Well my life has officially sucked for over 16 years now. Somebody shoot me if you are willing to. I'm fed up with society, and people. I thought I had friends but now I guess I don't. After last nite I know I have NO friends at all... -Gobbles